My Queen (James Carstairs FanFic)

What will happen after Will's death?


1. Chapter One

Flashback - London, 2008

Tessa stood on Blackfriars bridge, searching for the one person she met in the same place every year. A young man walked towards her, startling her. It wasn't Brother Zachariah; it was Jem. Jem was back!


"Tessa?" She walked calmly over to him.

"How- Did you find the cure?"

"I didn't. Magnus did." He looked down at her wrist. "You're still wearing the bracelet Will gave you?"

"Of course! But, how? What happened?"

"That is a story of another generation of Herondale's, Fairchild's, Lightwood's, Carstairs' and Blackthorn's."

"Okay. So what are you going to do? Are you going to Idris or another Institute?"

"I don't know. I don't know what I'm going to do."

"Stay." Jem looked at her in confusion.

"Tell me something, Tessa."


"Did you ever love anyone after Will?"

"Yes. But there is only one other person Jem. And that person was- is- you. I have only ever loved you other than Will. But if I had not loved Will, I would not have loved you as I do, and if I had not loved you, I would not have loved Will as I did."

"Tess, are you saying that-"

"Yes, Jem. I'm saying that I still love you, and I have always loved you. That is how I can say this: Jem stay. Stay with me." She reached under her top and pulled out the jade pendant he had given her when he proposed before he became a Silent Brother. She could still read the inscription on the back of the charm. When two people are at one in their inmost hearts, they shatter even the strength of iron or bronze.

"All these years," he said, his voice a low whisper. "You wore it, and I never knew."

"I didn't want it to be a burden. I didn't want you to think you had to find a way to come back to me and be able to stay with me. It would have hurt me to give you that burden, and it would have hurt you, carrying that burden on your shoulders. I didn't want to give that pain. It hurt enough just seeing you walk away that one day a year that I saw you. I didn't show that pain to you because it would have hurt you to see me hurt and I wanted you to get on with your life without knowing that you had caused me pain."

"You think I went through 150 years without you with no pain? You think I wanted to leave you every time I saw you on that one day a year? It hurt me to walk away too, Tess. When Will died, I stayed strong, because Silent Brothers are not supposed to feel. You had no idea how badly I just wanted to help you remove your pain, but I knew I couldn't. I helped you by being there. I helped you as much as I could. Tessa, I still love you."

She stepped closer until there was only an inch of space between them. She looked up at him because no matter how much time had passed, he was still that little bit taller than her. She smiled and closed her eyes as he leaned down slowly and brushed his lips against hers, then pressed them against her lips harder. She wrapped her arms around his neck; his arms were around her waist. He pulled away.

"I will stay, Tessa. I will stay, as your husband." She gasped. He had the Carstairs' ring in his hand. The ring she had left on the table next to him after the last yin fen attack he had. He knelt down on one knee and held the ring up. "Tessa. Will you do the honour of taking my name and becoming Tessa Carstairs?"

"Yes. I will become Tessa Carstairs."

He stood up and kissed her. She could hear clapping around her.

"Wo ai ni, Tessa. Wo ai ni wo bu Xiang shi qu ni "

She knew what it meant. I love you, and I don't want to lose you.

"Same here." He kissed her again. He took her hand and they walked to the train station to get the train to go to New York.

Flashback over- New York, 2011

Tessa rolled over and looked at Jem. He was laying on his side facing her, snoring softly. She held back a giggle. Her phone buzzed, and Jem made a noise and opened his eyes groggily. She smiled at him and kissed him quickly before getting out of bed and walking over to the table where her phone was. It was Emma, Jem's great-great-niece. 

"It's Emma." She said to Jem.

"What does it say?" He asked sleepily.

"She asked how we were, and asked if we would be there at her and Julian's wedding." Jem sat bolt upright.


"She wants you to walk her to Jules, and me to bear the stele." Jem smiled. 

Just then, a baby crying split their silence. Tessa put her phone down and went to walk out of the room, but the baby's crying stopped. She could hear Kit shushing the baby, and grinned at Jem. She opened the doors of their wardrobe and pulled out jeans and a shirt. Changing, she smiled at the sound of Kit playing with his baby sister. Jem laughed at her sentimentality.

"It has been two months since I gave birth, James." He laughed again.

"James? Really?" He smiled. "Wo ai ni, Tessa, but please don't call me James."

She smiled at him and put her hair up.

"Mum? I think Sophie is hungry." Kit's voice called. Tessa laughed and walked to the room where her daughter and adopted son were. When she walked into the room, a noise was heard. A noise she recognised well. The noise of a Portal. Magnus walked in the room with Alec, and both his kids, but someone else was with them, too. Tiberius Blackthorn. Kit froze.

"Tiberius would not stop irritating me to Portal him here. It was quite annoying, actually." Magnus said.

"Sorry, Magnus." Him, Alec, Max and Rafael went to say hello to Jem. Tessa took Sophie to feed her and give Kit and Ty some privacy.

When Kit had seen Ty, he had felt that burning desire in his stomach that had been buried for eleven and a half months. He had frozen. Now everyone had left the room, it had grown.


But Kit had crossed the room in two steps and taken Ty's face in his hands. Ty looked at him before reaching up slightly, to lightly brush his lips against Kit's, teasing him. Unable to bear it any longer, Kit pushed his lips against Ty's hard. Ty smiled and wrapped his arms around Kit's neck. 

Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of this story. As my first story after finally finishing every shadowhunters book, I realised my favourite couples in all of the series. I have written the longest chapter ever for me, 1162 words. I am really proud of myself for some reason. Chapter two will be up in the next few days. If I don't update soon, have a Happy New Year.

TC x

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